ED: Over the weekend I bought some books on "multiples pregnancies" and learned that I am supposed to consume ONE THOUSAND extra calories daily which made me feel terrible (see! this is why I hate pregnancy books!) because there's no fucking way. I mean... if my body is telling me NOT to eat, what am I supposed to do, force feed myself grilled cheese sandwiches?
The answer is yes, apparently so.
Anyway. Here is my bump:
And here is a better picture so you can REALLY see that it is indeed slowly growing. I think.
I want to thank all of you again for your kindness and support and to the twin moms who have contacted me with information, THANK YOU. I feel totally overwhelmed by all that this pregnancy is and means and differs from my last two. And even though I'm getting excited to grow these babes and someday meet them, I feel in many ways alone, and overwhelmed by how we'll afford/have the time to take care of all these children. I don't have any friends in LA with three kids, let alone four, so in a way I feel a little like I did when I was pregnant with Archer - like I'm veering into no man's land, here, in my soon-to-be Winnebago of a bod. (I told Hal we're going to have to either convert to Mormonism or become Orthodox Jews to make friends because who the hell is going to invite us anywhere with all these children?)
The other night we were discussing how two babies end up in one mommy. Archer believes that when people die they immediately become babies in a mommy's stomach. That two people must have died at the same time and that's why I'm pregnant with twins. And then he told me to tell my "baby doctor" that when HE dies he'd like to go straight into my tummy again because "I love this family and want to live in this life again."
Every time I feel an inkling of fear of the future, I think of Archer and his words, always wise and kind and comforting and I think, whatever if no one invites us anywhere, or if we'll never be able afford to take a family African Safari or send the kids to out of state colleges... we got, we got love.