Remember this fabric? It was my original first choice for bumpers (also Echino) but once it arrived I changed my mind. I still adored the fabric but it didn't work in the room. So? My mom bought some ultra soft chenille (minky) fabric in teal and purple, rickrack from Maisonette and (voila!) turned the fabric into stroller blankets: stroller blankets that as they get older they'll be able to sleep with, bring with them to slumber parties, camp.... college.
Yes, college. Not that they'll necessarily go but I mention this because (and I have yet to tell anyone this story but here goes) when I first found out I was pregnant with twins, almost six months ago and I was sitting in the doctor's chair, staring at the two tiny bodies on the ultrasound screen, my VERY first thought, before it even occurred to me to have a panic attack was that someday, I would attend their graduation ceremony.
It was the closest I've ever come to an out of body experience, like the next eighteen-years were gone and suddenly I was sitting in the stands with Hal and Archer and Fable, watching these babies graduate from high school in matching gowns and two different shades of hair flowing out from under their square caps and we were cheering. All four of us were cheering for the graduates and I was trying to make out their faces but they were too far away to see...
...And then BAM, it was over and I was back in the chair with the ultrasound wand pressed against my belly, hysterical because WHAT THE FUCK? HOW DID THIS HAPPEN? HOW WILL WE AFFORD THIS OH DEAR GOD THIS MUST BE A JOKE PANIC PANIC PANIC INFINITY PANIC. But in the back of my head, even as I breathed into paper bags, a little voice was humming Pomp and Circumstance and still kind of is.
Silly? Perhaps. But I keep finding my way back to that moment. Every time I feel scared or alone or overwhelmed I think of the womb-mates' imagined graduation ceremony. I think of Hal and Archer and Fable and me cheering in the stands for these faces we can't see.
Anyway... for the graduates:
She even personalized them by sewing their names on the front/sides (font found in this pattern book for those who can embroider). Initials will have to suffice for now:
I love them so. I'm most positive R&B will, too. Thanks, Mom.